Have you ever felt insecure with someone? Yeah? Many times? Great. It’s ok if we feel insecure with a person but for me, it’s an inhuman thing which makes me feel insecure. Yes!
Mr.music.
He always makes me feel insecure when I’m around him.
Actually, he is sweet, he has helped me out many times. Mr.music and me, we are like super cool friends. Whenever I feel alone, it’s him who picks me up and says “C’mon buddy! I’m there. Can I sing you a song?“ and then he sings a song too, mostly lullaby.
We have concerts too, mostly bathroom concerts. We are together a band. We conduct our concerts every morning. Our spectators are towel, bucket, mug and .... you know the bathroom stuffs right? but my mom, she doesn’t like my concerts. She is the one who always ends it with a knock on the door along with 3 sweet words
“Idiot! Shut up!“.
But we don’t care, we continue our concert.
He is sweet, he hangs always with me, anyplace, anytime. Even at school, he is with me. While studying, he competes with my book stuff and makes it a point that it’s his songs that reaches my mind and not the book stuff, OH! how sweet! It’s sweet right, someone with you always.! At exams too, he never leaves me. While I recall formulas, he says “Dude! chuck it! You forget the tittle song of SARAVANAN MEENATCHI, I remember it“ and he starts to hum. see how sweet, even if I forget, he reminds me. Wow! He is also supportive. When no one cares about me, it’s him who lends his ears to me. Yeah, my vocals! everyone says it sounds like electronic crap, but you know what?, Mr.music never stops encouraging me. He always cheers me to sing“C’mon buddy! who cares! Just sing, I’ll play music!“. That makes me a rockstar, holding on concerts during prayer, during exams, during lectures, why, even while thrown out,(even at some serious discussion to rob away the toppers’ flair pen or while friend sobbing out his breakup story) the concerts with no spectators(unless I get caught).
He is also motivating, whenever someone crosses their line rising my nerve up, he plays some goofy BGM which boils up my blood and makes me go straight to him(though I get punched back or it’s me who gets ditched at the end) for a fight.
Though he is such a great friend, it’s him who makes me feel insecure. Almost all the time, when we are around with someone, it’s him who gets the attention and not me. When we are around people, they leave me out as an optional choice. He is nice to everyone, even I am, but he gets the attention. Lemme say you an incident, where I got too jealous over him.
Once I with my family were on a long drive by car. My parents were not in a good mood or better say in a bad mood. They were tensed up it seems. As a son, I thought of getting their mood back, thought of cooling them up, even I tried a bit and got a sweet reply “Can you please zip your mouth!“. As a son I was helpless, If a son couldn’t cool their parents, who else could, right? No! wrong! that’s when something big happened.
My mother turned on the music player. Some 2-3
songs went by and came – a song that took them on a nostalgic trip. Both started cooling down, slightly wore a smile on their face. He cooled them up and said“C’mon yeah, relax” My mom responded to him by humming to the song and my dad seemed to have a relaxed face listening to that song. Mr. music really changed their mood. At that time, the whole car was filled with peace and happiness except one guy who was burning in the tub of jealousness, and shamelessly it’s me, just wondering how powerful he is!
From then I feel insecure around him, and I wanna get rid of him, but his sweetness makes me never do that. Such a sweet companion I could never get.
Even when I said I’m gonna write about him(the insecurity stuff) he did not get tensed up instead he sat along with me and said
“I’m excited buddy!”
see even now he is playing ENJOY ENJAAMI song and compromising me to write good of him. It’s around him where I am myself, not caring for my flaws, just being as I am. So yeah even though he makes me feel insecure, it’s him who makes me – ME.
So more than insecure I could say :
With him I feel” IN – SECURED “
-Mr.nothing
I hope there are many people like Mr.music in your life too ! We never know we feel insecured? or in-secured?
Your’s lovingly,
Mr.nothing
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